Reaching the Destination Means Another Journey is Just Beginning

I’m almost done with my apprenticeship and I’m nervous as hell.

I thought you liked to change things up?

I love moving on from old things. The sense of relief I get from finishing a project is heavenly – but it always comes with the heavy weight of preparing for the next project.

And for now, I don’t know what that is.

Do you have any ideas, or is it empty up there?

I have plans to jump back into transcription with Rev and learn about web development to see if it’s for me. This plan is all well and good, but I need to think about my future career prospects, or at least what I am going to do when my current contract is over. And that is a hard concept to visualise.

I am usually pretty good at imagining scenarios, especially ones that are NEVER going to happen, but I have trouble seeing myself in another position at the moment. Most of my aspirations and visualisations revolve around making more online content for myself.

I could get another corporate position after my current one, and I should be able to make more content too. The question is can I do both, or is that too much to ask.

No, I’m not thinking about working for BuzzFeed. But another company that needs social media content, videos and podcasts could be an interesting place to work. I know I don’t have the most experience, and I have a long way to go in terms of my knowledge and skills in visual and audio media, but if I have an idea of which direction I want to go in, it might help me forge a path towards a promising career.

Uh-huh. That’s nice. Any other ideas?

I refuse to put all my eggs in one basket though. As mentioned before, transcription and web development are on my list of things to learn more about. Although these skills can be useful for my own projects, they could also become career paths for me in the future.

Right now, I don’t think I’m ready to decide what I want to do for the rest of my life. But the only way I can find out what my purpose is, is to try out as many things as possible and see what fits.

What does this all mean?

Basically, I’m scared for my future because what I want to do still isn’t clear. I’m even not sure of which direction I’m going in.

Obviously, I need to find a job that pays enough so I can live, and be of some use when it comes bills and other household expenses. But I fear that job searching this time around is going to be even harder than last time. You know, because the world is in turmoil! I have to find something secure, but also a job that fits my interests.

I hope to paint a picture of posibilities for myself, and design a treasure map to guide my efforts. Ah yes, two more things to add to my to-do list.

Links:

Instagram | Facebook | YouTube | Sign up to my mailing list!